dimana silapnya...

untuk dia yang tidak mungkin membaca ini


mana silapnya? pengaruh kawan terlalu kuat? buat aku terfikir...betapa pentingnye memilih kawan yang betul,yang baik. friends are reflection of yourself. ade orang cakap, buat ape nak pilih2 kawan? mcm kau bagus sgt je nk pilih2 sape buleh kawan ngn kau? oh well, you have a point there. memang xsalah kau nak kawan ngn sesiapa pun, orang angkat tahi/ bangla jual carpet sekalipun, selagi dia orang baik yang buleh dipercayai, yang tak menyesat & menyusahkan. well in fact, that is better than friends that made you lied to your parents! friends that drag you into the dark! friends who have poisoned your mind and heart.....until you've become like this. i'm sad.
honestly...i've never expect things like this to happen to us. because i believe that we all have a strong foundation, at least. you know what, i've seen people like you. i've heard some stories about people like you. because i went to school too. because i was foolish too. but now, when it really happens.................. i'm just blank. i simply don't understand. dimana silapnya..oh anyway... kembali kepada kawan,maksud memilih tu sebenarnye pilih mana yang boleh diikut, yang boleh membimbing.....dan yang mane perlu dijauhi. aku percaya itu.
what's in your mind man?! i don't get you! kau ingat hidup kau setakat ni je ke? kau ingat kau selamanya mcm ni ke? kau ingat ape yang kau ade sekarang ni boleh kau guna untuk masa depan? kau ingat dgn ponteng class kau boleh lulus exam? unless you have effort to study on your own at home.....which i doubt. i'm worried for you. ape la nak jadi dgn kau ni...i thought you've changed. oh wait a second....you have changed....you've become worse! i thought you've understand it already. but clearly you don't. i wonder if you have plans for your future life. kau nak tunggu tragic 'eye-opening' drama baru kau nk sedar?!
listened to stories about you made my heart burning, my head aching,and my forehead frowning. i sighed for thousand times...and i screamed that person i was talking to on the phone shocked. angry...and disappointed. you might think and say.."why do you care penyibuk?!!" ohhhh i'm SORRY kalau menyibuk! but we're related so indirectly whatever is happening now is my problem too moron!.....for whatever you've done and said, i'm afraid nobody will believe you anymore.
i know we're not close. we barely speak to each other kalau jumpe pun. ohh mungkin sebab kau yang selalu hilang!
they asked me to speak to you...see whether i can reach your heart. but i don't know, i keep delaying it because i'm pretty sure i'm not a suitable person. yeah...you probably needs someone around your age...and same gender~ people around you have shown some effort, but you don't let them through. or probably i should just call you and say hi, tanya khabar............tapi jujur dari hati, aku xtau nak cakap ape dengan kau!
remember the day you quarrelled with your sister? i shouted at you...it was just an empty shout. and i'm sorry for being biased. i wish i could say all this thing to you, in front of you, at that time.
i miss you so much. seeing and knowing you growing up so fast just to become a horrible person make me sick. i just hate what you're doing to yourself, but i don't hate you. i would never hate you because the very same blood that runs in your veins, runs in mine too.
this is the embarrassingly funny part....i can only speak to this stupid blog....... I CAN ONLY SPEAK TO THIS STUPID BLOG!



i sincerely apologise for being too emotional..please excuse me for my ignorance, recklessness and inappropriateness.



Ya Allah, bukakan hatinya...lembutkan hatinya supaya dia sedar...kami sayangkan dia.